This is where it all begins...again

This is far from the first blog i have decided to write. But, i have decided that as things carry on happening in my life, i want to write it all down, and share some of the things that I am doing with the world.
I am currently in Spain doing a language course (in Spanish, obviously) and I am having a really really good time. But, over the course of the past year, I have been considering my life, and those of others, in a completely new way. Some, myself included, attribute this new thinking to smoking more weed. I would argue that far from being a bad thing, it has simply opened my mind. This may seem like a pretty clichéd thing to say, and, as with anyone at this juncture in their lives, my perspective on life and what it is to be human, and specifically me, is changing rapidly as i do more and more interesting things. However, i am surrounded by people who seem to have a more concrete perception of what they want out of life, what they have, the people they are surrounded by, the way they want to be, and what they want to do. I am as yet unsure, and cnstantly confused by everything, probably because i am a thinker rather than a doer.
So, here are some of my thoughts. I recently saw a theatre piece by some of my best friends at university from behind the scenes and i completely understood then why they do it. It is exciting, and it allows them the freedom to be other people, to bring out reactions from others, and to create fluidly and constantly. I am not a person who would like to do theatre, but I am a person whose introspection so far has been heavily limited. I much prefer to watch and to think about the people i see, rather than try to look inwards and think about the person i can't quite see there.

I realise that this is particluarly human.

Whatever.

I'm done with the clichés now. It has begun to rain outside, and I really miss the smell of water on concrete here in Spain. I am glad that if you are reading this, you have got this far. I am glad, that writing this, i have got this far.

What is going to follow is a selection of thoughts, both written and drawn. Bear with them. I think that honestly, they are worth it.

but you be the judge.

Clive

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